Our first wedding of the year was this past weekend and all in all it was a success. The wedding was in Greenville, South Carolina and it just so happens that Rachel and Katherine had a wedding in the same hotel where we were staying. Coincidence? I think not! As my mom would say, "it's not odd, it's God." We decided to take Lanier with us, and after numerous phone calls and recommendations, we hired two high school girls to watch her while we went to the wedding/reception. I have to say, I was pretty nervous to leave my sweet baby. I knew she would be fine and that the girls would take good care of her. It must just be part of being a mom...your heart aches a little every time you have to leave your child. We went to the wedding, which was absolutely beautiful and very personal. They described the bride and groom, their families and how they met. I love weddings like that where you walk away feeling really excited for the couple's journey to come. Anyways, in between the wedding and reception we stopped by the room to feed Lanier and try to put her to bed for the night. I knew it would probably be difficult considering both the lights and TV were on in the room, and she was in a strange place with people she'd never met. After not having much luck, I left her to the sitters and wished them good luck. On to the reception we went, and I admit that I wasn't much fun. I couldn't stop thinking about Lanier back at the room. Was she missing me and Daniel, or wondering if we were ever coming back? Did she think I was a mean mommy for leaving her and letting her cry hours on end? I know this all sounds crazy and way over the top, but I promise these thoughts all passed through my head. At about 11pm, I begged Daniel to let us go back to the room. He ended up going out for the evening which left me with my little love bug. I couldn't wait to "accidentally" wake her up so I could pull her into my bed to snuggle with her and reassure her that I was there.
I have such conflicting feelings when it comes to Lanier's attachment to me. I want her to know that I"m her mom and will always be there. I can't get enough kisses and snuggling time in a day. However, I don't want to smother her so much that she doesn't want to go to anyone but me or that makes it hard to leave her with a babysitter. All I know is I do not believe you can hold your baby too much, or spoil your baby. I feel so lucky and blessed to have her...and the 50 smiles she gives me a day reassure me that she does know i'm her mommy and that she loves me too!
Here are a few pictures I took today!
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| Napping with Daddy |
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| Daddy giving her an evening bottle...she's holding it all by herself! |
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| Out to lunch with Mommy and a friend |
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| Loves those rings |
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| Outfit from Aunt Audrey, so cute |
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| Just got this summer outfit in the mail and even though it's too big I had to try it on her! |
Also, here is a cute video that I couldn't get to post, so click on the link. Sorry for my annoying voice in the background...sometimes I get carried away!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JxeabbbaJLA